Stuff Happens

I think having a strong will is usually a blessing but it can also curse. Went to the gym Saturday morning at 8:30 am and did pretty well on the treadmill with five sets at 10 degrees. Thinking how I can do this and see improvement already after only a few days. Hubris!
Then my knee went out while I was doing my PT exercises. I could feel it sort of go out of alignment but I couldn't get it back in again and now it hurts all the time, especially going downstairs. Scares me. But it feels just like it did when I got that cortisone shot back in November and after that, everything was okay. I've already got one of those shots scheduled June 3, right before the trip; maybe I should just try to get it sooner.
When I was worried about my breathing and cardio fitness on uphill hikes, I took how good my knee's been feeling lately for granted. Not so, now. But then, a phone call from my trip mates telling me to check my email inbox. Apparently, there may not be a Grand Canyon trip because we don't have overnight spots at Phantom Ranch or Bright Angel Campground and we can't hike rim to rim without knowing we have a place to spend the night, eat, etc. (At least I can't!)
About that will thing. Boy, it's hard not to be devastated or freak out when when I want gets thwarted! But maybe learning how to live with that is the blessing.
Maybe I'm not meant to go in June this year for some reason. Maybe we'll be able to hike the Grand Canyon some other time, when Laurie and Traci can come too. Stuff happens. Usually for a reason, though I may not know it at the time. Maybe things will still work out. We'll see.
How often have I said how enjoyable the journey to getting fit for this trip has been? A lot! Even if we're disappointed in our hopes to hike the Grand Canyon next month, I feel like I've already been on vacation this year: at least once a week in my own hometown.
I guess I don't need to worry about going to the gym and working on the treadmill tomorrow morning but I'm still going on my daily walks, even though my knee still hurts. I didn't treadmill today because I had the privilege of hosting Mother's Day brunch for my mom and dad and family. This afternoon, I did plenty of walking up and down the basement steps getting my patio furniture out and setting up the porches.
What will tomorrow bring? That's the biggest adventure of all, isn't it?!